Honestly Fearful

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I’m pretty sure we all have fears. If you don’t, please tell me how to get rid of mine 😉

My fears tend to cripple me and hold me back. Instead of moving forward the what-ifs tell me of all that could go wrong. This happens a lot in my mind. I’ll think about a conversation I want to have with someone and then I hit play on what they’re reaction could be and decide that it’s better to keep this conversation to myself. 

I know it’s silly. But it’s true. This is the path I’ve taken far more times than I care to admit. 

I also have fears that pop up when I am idle. In an attempt to be open and honest with you, I’ll name a few. 

  • Not making a positive impact on people
  • My husband’s safety and how my life would change without him
  • People being driven away from Jesus because of my actions (or lack of actions) 
  • Lack of wisdom
  • Missing an opportunity because of my fears (hehe yep, a fear within a fear)
  • Future miscarriages due to genetics 
  • Being unable to figure out what I want to do with my life 

I’ve learned that physically writing out my fears and giving them specific names helps me to hand them over to my Shepherd– the One who can take care of me even when fears surround me. 

As much as I hate it, my fears shape me. I don’t want that. 

I don’t want to be a fearful person, but instead I want to be someone who hands fears off to Jesus, resting in the knowledge that I can trust Him to take care of me. 

I want to say with the Psalmist, “I will fear no evil.” 

Dear Reader, I challenge you to take the time to write down your fears today on whatever piece of paper or electronic device you have. Be honest. It will be scary. Perhaps you, like me, have been trying to avoid thinking about your fears. I can tell you it’s much better to write them down and confront them then give them to Jesus. Even if you’re not a believer, you still may find peace in your fears by invoking the name of a god you don’t believe in. 

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