Blaring Restlessness

This morning as I sat down to my scheduled “Meeting with Jesus,” my mind ran over the list of things I wrote down last night that need to happen this week.

No matter how many verses I read or additional resources I attempted to soak in, my concentration was just not there. My body was physically going through the motions of reading and writing verses, but even so I would read a verse and check the time to see how much time I had left until I needed to get ready for work. 

  

My checklist turned into worries that I needed to confront and take care of. They distracted me from my meeting. Although I kept trying, my mind was not allowing me to be present. 

I searched for a podcast to listen to while getting ready for work. On the way to work, I began to feel like something was off. I was soon encouraged to go home and rest. And rest I did. 

Now, as I open up my bible to find a verse to share after a sweet mentor challenged me to post a bible verse for 7 days, I’m reminded of the need for stillness and rest. 

“Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!” (‭Psalm‬ ‭46‬:‭10‬ ESV)

Amidst the busyness, the worries, the checklist, God says, “BE STILL.” 

But being still is only one step. 

Although I was still, my mind bounced from thought to thought, never settling. The next part may seem simple, however it has such depth: “and know that I am God.” 

What does that mean to me? What does it mean to know God? Who is God to me during my struggles? Who is God when I am consumed by my checklist? 

My answer? 

He is the same God when I’m overwhelmed with my to do list as He is when I am consumed by His priorities. He is the same God who showed Elisha’s servant that He was ready to fight for them (2 Kings 6:8-32). He is the God who says, I came not to condemn, but to save (John 3:17). He is the one who is my refuge and strength (Psalm 46:1). He is the one who says, Come to me and find rest (Matthew 11:28). He is all these things and more. 

If you too struggle with a blaring restlessness, I encourage you to stop. Be still. Put away the device that distracts you from your worry. List the worries, but seek Him through them. 

Take as much time as you need (even if it’s hours later) to be still and know God. Make a list of who God is to you. 

I’ve found that listing my worries then comparing that list to the one that defines who God is to me calms me and allows me to rest in knowing God is bigger. 

My checklist is ever-growing. My heart becomes restless in busyness. 

But God is consistent. 

He is bigger. 

He can manage my life better than I can. 

The rest I seek, the contentment I desire can only be satisfied in knowing Him. This I know to be true. 

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