I Wasn’t Expecting Post Natal Depression to Hit NOW

Three months and a few days have passed since giving birth. I thought I was in the clear from postnatal depression, otherwise known as postpartum depression or PPD. But turns out, we can experience it anytime, even within 18 months after childbirth.  It’s currently 3:19 am. Perfect, since that’s my birthday and the competitor number…

Stop Striving for 100%

Can we all just agree that maybe 2020 is not the year to give 100%? Hear me out..  Since childhood, I’ve heard that it’s best to give 100% (or more) effort to anything and everything I wanted to achieve. To win was better than coming in second place, even though the bible talks about the…

Weeding Out Biases

It’s been a reoccurring thought throughout my life that I could have been born in a different location, to a different family, or part of a different culture. I still don’t know why I have been allowed to live a life with minor heartaches compared to others I know.

What I do know and came to realize this week is it’s not about avoiding being a part of the problem. Rather, as a believer and follower of Christ, I should be more concerned with being a part of the solution.

Details Matter

Details matter. They’re important. They bring joy to certain people who notice them. I usually notice the details. But there’s also days when I’m walking along thinking about something else and then I look up (or down in this case) and notice an unexpected surprise. ⁣ ⁣A few months ago, I was working through what…

Keep On

If you’ve ever doubted your faith, wondered what the point of prayer is, or just want to read some vulnerable thoughts, this post is for you. I’ve gone to, volunteered, and even worked in a church most of my life. My involvement has differed depending on my location, the church, and my spiritual status at…

California & TLF

We’ve been in California for two weeks now. We arrived a couple of weeks later than planned and encountered rainy, snowy mountainous highways, and hours of driving in fog. Upon arrival, we were met with several days of rain… not exactly our expectations of California. It’s still a season of waiting for us as we…

Trust in the Growth

As I looked up from the book I was reading, I felt a nudge to take a picture of the plant I brought from our home in New Jersey. It’s one of the biggest indoor house plants I had and the one houseplant I accidentally set on fire by placing a candle too close. A…

Trusting When Doors Keep Closing

All within 24 hours, our plans to continue on our journey to California were changed. Flights were cancelled and rescheduled, dates were pushed back, reservations were adjusted (and lost), housing went back on what they had said initially regarding our eligibility date, we made plans to work around housing that would be costly, then that…

Trusting in Delay

I’m not sure what trust is supposed to look like, but I know what it shouldn’t look like: Worry and stressing over things I can’t control.  In this military life there’s been loads of waiting. Always waiting for the next. Feeling like I can’t move forward because XYZ needs to happen before I take a…

Trusting in the Good and the Bad

I’ve been a little hesitant to write this post. You’ll soon see why. It’s a hard subject. Plus, there’s a tiny voice in my head telling me that if I write these words, I am opening myself up to experience more hard things.  Are you ready?  If God is worth trusting, and if I believe…